i still write in livejournal...shhh

& yes it's just as embarrassing as this internet journal. oh, blog? damn i'm so modern.

i want him.

i'm sort of done posting melodramatic internet journal entries.










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all that these sad and searching eyes can offer you is emptiness. do not seek comfort in them. they will not see you.

i am not in love with him. i am in love with the idea of him. i cannot just shelve these feelings, for there is nothing to take their place. i am in love with the idea that somewhere, at some time, i am happy. i am safe, and i feel at home.

i am none of these things.

relating to this bat for lashes song too much lately.

i'm becoming quite the piece of shit.

"To dream that you are taking cocaine, indicates that you are feeling empty and devoid of emotions. You are looking to get out of your commitments or denying your responsibilities. You lack ambition."